The Blues…

Most people think of me as an over all happy person. One who smiles and laughs a lot. However what most people don’t know about me is I am a very deep person. I tend to ponder what the meaning of life is quite frequently.

Most people that have kids would say that their kids are their sole purpose in life, but I believe there is so much more than that. I am not trying to de-validate your children, but think about it for a second…what else moves you…what drives you…what is your passion?

For me…of course most know what my passion is. Running. However I do have other passions in life as well. My love for animals is enormous. I would literally do anything for my pets, so I guess you could say they are my “kids”, but it’s more than that too. I would do anything for any animal. As a little girl I always wanted to be a Veterinarian. I mean shit, if I could turn back time I would do many things differently. Maybe I would have been a Vet, maybe I would have played more sports maybe just maybe I would have been runner.

I started this blog to share my running journey, but it may also help me sort through my thoughts. I have many thoughts, which is one reason I love and need to run. It calms me and soothes my mind.

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The Bridge Run 10K

Today was the first time that I had pushed and ran with Ainsley’s Angels. I had the honor to meet Nicky and his Parents. Team Nicky pushed him strong to the Finish!

I can honestly say I have never had a run be so rewarding like this one. We lent our legs to Nicky and he had so much fun the entire 6.2 miles.

Team mate Shina ate that hill on the bridge coming back up and let me tell you…pushing that stroller is NO joke…especially on an incline. Our team did great today!! I can’t wait to push with Ainsley’s again!!

Now to gear up for a double race weekend next week!

The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me!

“You don’t have to know where you’re going to get exactly where you need to go.”
Marilyn A. Hepburn

My journey with running began sometime back in 2009. I was 26 years old, over weight and tired all the time. I knew I didn’t want to live my life like that, so I began to diet and exercise.

During this time I found the love of running. Then, I couldn’t run for longer than like 30 seconds straight, but there was just something about it…I liked the way I felt when I was done. Even though for me at that time…it was more of a WOG…lol. I couldn’t explain it but I knew I had to keep trying to get better. That’s the thing about me, I won’t stop until I can prove myself to myself….

Over time with weight training, cardio and cutting calories (practically starving myself) I was able to drop 65lbs in 15 months. I thought I would be so happy being “skinny”, but in reality I wasn’t. I still was not happy with the “new” me. I still thought I was fat, I still thought I needed to look better.

I began running and through running I was able to deal with my anxiety, depression and I guess you could say my overactive mind. I was going through a lot at that time and now when I think back even though running helped me with all those issues..I began running for the wrong reason. I knew it helped me sort through things, but at that time my main goal was to continue dropping weight. I was starving myself, over exercising, obsessed and depressed. I got burnt out and eventually stopped everything and started over eating and put the weight back on.

It wasn’t until about two years ago I started running again for my peace of mind. Yeah I dropped some weight of course, but the difference is now I run for me, for my health. Not to be “skinny”. I have never been healthier in my life and I have learned so much about myself and continue to learn about me each and every day. I am stronger than I ever thought I was. Running has changed my life. ❤